11.15.2003

sad...

Patrick is in the hospital...
I am so freaking out...
I wish I had someone to talk to.

*sigh*
I wrote something in his journal


Dearest Patrick...

By the time you read this, I will be gone.
Back to Sacto... Trying to make it one more week.
Every time, I wish I could live in your closet,
just so I could be close to you.
I truly hope that you are feeling better.
I hope that your hospital visit wasn't all that bad.
I am sorry that I started to cry tonight.
I just care so much for you.
I never want to see you in any sort of pain.
I wish I could take any pain away
so you would never have to feel bad again.
I love you so fucking much...
I think I would die if anything
bad were to happen to you...

I love you more then cats love catnip...


-your forever and always,
Amanda///

PS:
I cleaned up your apartment a bit...
I hope you don't mind.



I would die for Patrick///
[& I honestly would]