feliz dia del nuevo...

So,
Yesterday Mommy Mom & I went to the movies.
We saw Big Fish...
It was so beautiful!
I love Tim Burton's style.
Plus looking @ Ewan McGregor is a plus.
Mom & I cried at the end.
We keep talking about the movie.
Mom told my Aunt Pat & Grandma to see it!
I took her to Costco to get a yummy yum
Chicken Bake after the movie...
Movie & Lunch!
Manda & Mom = dorky women

So,
I talked to Patrick yesterday.
I don't think I am in his thoughts
anymore... He is always in mine.
I don't think he wants to be friends.
I am confused. He confuses me.
I just wanna see him...
& Hang out with him...
& just love him...
I know that is imposable.
A girl can dream, can't she?

So,
I don't know why I start every topic with so!?
I spent a good part of the nite
sending text messages to Janette.
Janette is Patrick's friend &
works with my Mommy Mom
I talked about Patrick.
My favorite topic.
She thinks I am too young
to be tied down to one person.
I told her my perspective.
She told me that Patrick's a difficult
person to understand &
that Patrick's friend Scott
broke up with his girlfriend
around the same time as Patrick.
We found this strange.

So,
Today Mom & I took down the X-Mas
crap all around the house.
I attempted to clean my car.
That was a failed attempt.
I played some Coldplay in the car.
I cried when I heard The Scientist.
I looked in the vanity mirror
and saw true beauty in my pain
of life and my recent heartbreak.
I watched Son of the Beach
with Mom, Dad & Orion.
Orion & I drove to Adalberto's
and got burritos!
We took the back roads home & got semi-lost.
I watched some Rich Girls with mom
& then got $2 of Lottery tickets.
Lottery = $71 million!!!

[Announcement!!!]
If I win the Lottery,
I am gonna quit work...
Travel the world and
to go all the great
colleges in the world.
& buy a house and name the place
Cherrywood Manor

So,
Tonight... I, Amanda Ruth Ramirez,
will be a social girl.
I am not going to Moki's 80's party.
I am gonna go to Denny's to meet Miss Trisha.
But now, I am watching Johny Depp.
Boys with dark hair = love!

happy y2k + 4

bow chicka wow wow...

So,
Another day is here...
I woke up @ 7a!
I had a dream about falling power lines
and a picture of some girl Patrick was dating.
That's crrraaayyyzzzzy.
Oh yeah, The days are passing by so fast!
I wish they would pass even faster!
The sky is opening up and
the rain is coming down!

Manda + rain = driving thru puddles while smiling

So,
I have been working even harder.
I don't know why but I just am.
Strange, huh?
I have been putting more stock on the floor
and enjoying helping people.
And yes...
I keep talking to Courtland.
Everyday, a new line from
Aqua Teen Hunger Force
It is so fucking great!
Who wrote 'The Moon Rules' on my car?
When I left work,
I drew a heart on his car.
I am a dork!
I should give him my cell number...
We could watch Aqua Teen Hunger Force & Son of the Beach together!!!
*swoons*

I spent $50 of the $75 of Best Buy gift cards.

CD:
50 cent 'Get Rich or Die Trying'
[Makes me wish I could sing good enough to be a rapper!]
The Chemical Brothers 'The Singles 93 - 03'
[Makes me wanna drive faster... Great beats if you have a good stereo]
Coldplay 'A Rush of Blood to the Head'
[Makes me wanna cry... The most beautiful CD I have ever bought!]

DVD:
Gladiator staring Joaquin Phoenix & Russel Crow
[Makes me cry... Such a beautiful movie & it's an action film!]

Dad helped me fix my new DVD player in my room.
I owe him $40! It's alright tho.
Mommy Mom & I are gonna see Big Fish
the new Tim Burton film.
I adore Tim & Ewan McGregor.
I need to spend more time with my family.
Not my brothers, just Mom & Dad.

Randomness:
-Mom said my birth control pills were approved!
-Gloria from work just found out that we broke up.
-Wore my pimpin' suede jacket in the rain.
-Was complemented on my hair [by Gloria] & my great personality [once on Sunday and once on Monday]
-Was told by Pamm that I work better then the other boys @ work.
-Watching belly dancing on the news.
-Have been crocheting like a mad woman.
-Haven't really thought of him... well kinda.
-Adam keeps calling me!!!

I better go.
I need to clean my room,
clean Jelly Bean,
etc etc.

Sorry this is so long.
I just love to write.

cruel summer...

Oh Lordy-Lord...

So Christmas is gone.
Oh yes... Thank gawd!
Now I can finally find a parking space @ work!
3 more days of 2003!!!

Things I got:
[x]Aunt Trisha: super cute gloves and a body wash stuff!
[x]Aunt Rosemary & Uncle Jesse: $25...
[x]Mom & Dad: thing for my new apartment
when I move out... And a nice suede jacket!
[x]Grandma & Aunt Pat: Best Buy gift card
and she also gave one to Patrick but since we are
broken up, she said I can have it!!!
[Score on for the bad guys!!!]
[x]Dee Dee: Jamba Juice gift card.
[x]Mary: Starbucks gift card, Happy Bunny magnet, Sponge Bob Square Pants toys, Origami kit.
[x]Moki: a star necklace, book of Ty Pennington from Trading Spaces.
[x]Karie: candy!!!
[x]Marianne: more candy!!!
[x]Me: new DVD player

So,
good news...
I have lost some weight!
Not a lot but enough to
make me think I am purdyful!!!

I am finished feeling sorry for myself.
I am stronger then I know.
Music is my therapy.
I am feel better these days.
My sarcasm & sense of humor defeats my dreaded emotions!
Lately, I have been talking to Courtland too much!!!
We would be the ultimate dorky couple!
We recite lines from Aqua Teen Hunger Force
to each other constantly!
*swoons*
Be still my heart!

Dad & I had a talk on x-mas eve...
We talked about the break up thing.
He said that Patrick is way immature.
He talked about him & Mom and their relationship.
I started to cry...
My Dad is so great.
He said that if Patrick really did love me,
he would love all my imperfections & emotional baggage.
So, I don't think he loved me.

End of story.

Anyways,
Plans for 2004 are under way!
I have a few goals.

1)Mission House: save up enough money to by my house
2)Mission Major: finish up school to obtain Art Major
3)Mission Jelly Bean: pay off car


I gotta go to workie!
Maybe I will post more later.
I have a full day of spending money &
being a uber-dork!